I recently came to realize the difference between receiving, accepting, and claiming one’s own worth. In doing so, I had an opportunity to come home to myself.
A little over a year ago, I began to put myself out into the world as an artist. This is something that I longed to be, and yet never felt I had the right to be or to call myself. My background and training were in theater, business, and law. I work in non-profit in fundraising and volunteer management. Sure, I dabbled in different creative arts over the years, enjoying them. But me? An artist? Bah.
And then, it dawned on me. Who gets to tell me if I’m an artist? Who makes that judgment? I do. Yes, I’ve heard from friends and family, and even those who have purchased my artwork whom I’ve never met that they love my work. Okay. I can receive those compliments. I can even accept them into my heart, body and soul.
But then, it dawned on me. There’s another layer, another step to take. Claiming who we are. And, oh boy, that’s a doozy!
Put the visual to it. There’s a mountain right there in front of you. It’s tall. It’s snowcapped. It’s beautiful. And a tough, tough climb. And here, in your hand, is your flag of identity. You received that flag through acceptance of who you are. But there, in front of you looms that mountain, just the same. It’s your job to climb to the pinnacle of that mountain, stake the flag into the top, and claim those traits, those characteristics, those parts of you that you most desire.
So, although I have much to learn and am open and willing to make mistakes, grow, and keep moving forward, here I am with my flag in hand. And up I climb. And as I reach the summit, I am ready, poised to place the flag at the top.
I am an artist. I am a multidisciplinary artist. I enjoy the art I create today, and look forward to learning and making new things tomorrow. Every day, I will create. I will stay true to my vision of bringing more beauty into the world. This is who I am. Today, I claim the right to be called an artist. Today, I come home to myself.